Depression, Moving On

Dad, If You Could See Me Now

Dad:

Today, someone shared a father-daughter first date video on Facebook and I started dying inside missing you.

How are you? What does Heaven look like? I guess you’re happier now.

I still wake up late but Mom took your place. She’s my new alarm clock. I still wish you’d come and wake me up every morning. I hardly had my breakfast. Mom only cooks what her favorite grandson wants. Besides, no one scolds me anymore if I skip breakfast. But it’s okay, Mom would sometimes bring the food to my table.

I lost my appetite after you’re gone Thanks to your Jr. he cooks so well that my taste buds have been brought back to life months ago. Don’t worry, we still eat dinner like you’re around. We’re trying our best.

Your favorite drama series ended 2 months ago. I stopped watching it when you left but I catch up with the ending. Well, it was a happy ever after.

I watch Korean Pop Concerts and K-dramas alone. If you’ve been watching me from above, then I’m glad that we still watch it together. I know you were interested to learn the Korean language. How did I know? I looked through your things and found out what you were writing on that paper. It was Korean and its English translation. I laughed hard and cried in silence after seeing it. I stopped going to movie theaters. I only remember our first movie date together.

We’ve moved. I thank God we did. I’ll probably go crazy if we haven’t. Not because we wanted to forget you. It will never happen. We just want to move on and fix our broken hearts. Well, it’s probably your fault dad, leaving us so early.

Your memories are in every corner of that house We all can’t stand the pain. That house was filled with happy memories but we can’t afford to stay there.

You were always in my dream dad. Thank you for always visiting me. I know you’re there. Words don’t come out but I know how much you loved me.

If relationships still exist in Heaven, I will beg the Lord to let you be my father again. Then I’ll make sure to repay you and take care of you eternally.

I LOVE YOU Dad and I MISS YOU so much….